Drawing Tarot cards

Opening an account on the deviant art platform makes me to take even old drawings from hidden cabinets and show them without shame. I never claimed to be a professional artist. I draw by heart and cannot do it better.

Long ago, I started to draw my own tarot cards with related Aura-Soma bottles on them. At that time I was sitting several hours a day surrounded by this colorful miracle and absorbed the energy and story inside. I was fascinated, so it’s no wonder I put them into the system.

I made about half of the major arcana when I realized how cowardly I was trying to avoid drawing people because it was a nightmare for me. At the same time I clearly saw that cards without people didn’t have enough energy, they were somehow flat. But the others looked strange because the people didn’t fit anatomically. I began to feel more frustration then pleasure, so I interrupted the whole project.

I took the cards from the bottom of scrap last week with the same result as many years ago. The cards without people are nice but flat, the cards with people are strange but strong enough. The only difference happened in the mind. It seems that I began to like my strange people and even the strange perspective. And I proudly show you some of them today.

I’ve been always saying that my drawing replaces therapy. It took several years, but hopefully I did accept my imperfection finally.

With love and respect to imperfections,

Ivana

In the case you’d like to look at more of my tarot drawings, here is link to the gallery.

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To be connected

Following my last advice, I turn attention to the faith. Although I’m not a part of any religion officially, my heart speaks Hebrew.

I have no preconditions to it from the family, it came to me in dreams many years ago and since that I’ve confirmed a strong response of my soul and heart to the sound of the Hebrew language in various circumstances, even though I didn’t understand a single word in the beginning.

I’m still on the way of searching how to implement this fact into my daily life and not to pretend anything. Maybe I’m not fast enough and this is why the violet color sits deep in the wardrobe full of dust.

So I returned to the picture I drew a few years ago, when I was trying to catch my vision of the commandments inside of the tree of life.

I have meditated over this drawing last days and it seems to me, that each of us is a kind of smart-phone with the spiritual crown instead of antenna, constantly sending messages about true personal stuff to the whole universe with stars as transmitters.

It doesn’t matter how colorful and funny things are displayed to other people, the truth is preciously mined and sent to the attention of HaShem.

Sometimes it’s hard to believe when you get no direct answer, but the point is to keep trying and stay connected, right?

With love and apology for my Hebrew handwriting,

Ivana

Liebster Award nomination!

I am honored to get this award nomination from Jewish Thoughts, who deeply inspires my soul in her posts. I like to follow her thoughts from beginning to the final point, even though sometimes I don’t perfectly understand the subject. But I feel a kind of resonation in my heart, so it counts.

Additionally, I sincerely welcome this opportunity to know each other closer and more personally.

The rules of the award as follows:

1. Acknowledge the blog who nominated you and display the award.
2. Answer the 11 questions the blogger gives you.
3. Give 11 random facts about yourself.
4. Nominate 11 blogs.
5. Notify those 11 blogs of the nomination.
6. Give them 11 questions to answer.

Jewish Thoughts asked me following questions:

1. When did you start blogging?

It is nearly one year, time is running so fast!

2. Why do you write?

From time to time I have internal tension from too many ideas and putting them down is a kind of therapy. Doing it in English is a language practice. Finally, I love my herbs and it is a pleasure to share what I love.

3. What is your favorite holiday or festival?

Definitely birthday and not necessarily my birthday. I consider each birth of a new life as a miracle, so it deserves to be celebrated.

4. What is your greatest ambition?

You should ask me twenty years ago! I would give you a long list of them! Today I am more humble in ambitions as I believe that being a decent woman with open heart is a good start.

5. If you could have any one thing what would it be?

Honestly I don’t know. I cannot remember anything in terms of things. If the thing could be a strong health, this would be my favorite.

6. What was the best day of your life?

Speaking about miracle of the life, it was probably my birth. Otherwise I wouldn’t taste the miracles after then.

7. What is your favorite season?

Spring, because it is kind of rebirth among seasons.

8. Do you enjoy reading?

It depends. I don’t like reading for reading, reading as an escape from the present moment, an escape from daily life. I like reading for pleasure, especially with taste of inspiration and/or information. But I don’t aspire for hunting information which I cannot use.

9. What is your job?

I work on myself as a consultant in the field of personality development, especially how to deal with various stress factors.

10. What is your favorite recipe?

In principle, I am not a fan of recipes. I like to understand how things react and then create myself. That’s why I cannot make the same soap twice regardless precise documentation. I believe it is similar like weather. You can recognize when it rains, but the rain is never exactly the same. And it couldn’t be.

11. What makes you want to wake up each morning?

I simply like to live. It doesn’t matter if it’s raining or sunshinig.

 

Now I give you the confession, I mean the random 11s about myself 🙂

1. I’m mad for herbs.
2. I need a space to create and sometimes it’s difficult to keep the rules.
3. When I’m enthusiastic with some idea I need to share it, even though the others couldn’t feel as much enthusiasm. But it’s so difficult to confront the ideas with four walls only! 🙂
4. I love Hebrew letters! I feel them like many layers’ bright spots in spiritual darkness.
5. I love Hebrew language! The sound of it gives me strength, protection and excitement.
6. I like drawing with colored pencils, but I’m not able to use any “wet” technique.
7. I’m afraid to follow my inner calling in all aspects of it.
8. I am aware of the fact that any decision based on a fear has never brought me to happiness.
9. It’s much easier for me to give advice than to make the advice alive.
10. I love nuts! Especially almonds, walnuts, pecans, cashew, pistachio and many others. If you pay a visit, bring some of them.
11. You can expect some experiment from my kitchen in return 🙂

 

I would like to nominate other 11 blogs for the Liebster award with humble hope they accept it.

1. Reflections on Existence
2. Wildlife and Eco Gardens
3. The Dancing Herbalist
4. The Zero-Waste Chef
5. Wildflower, Medicine Wolf
6. Platyzoa, artborean
7. Jessica Baker
8. AquarianSoap
9. Naked but Content in My Flower Garden
10. Rhythm in Life
11. Farmer Hick’s Homestead

 

And here are my short 11 questions:

1. Coffee or tea? And which one?
2. City or wilderness and why?
3. Cat or dog?
4. Book or TV?
5. Summer or winter for holiday?
6. Running or walking?
7. What ice cream do you love if any?
8. What is your favorite fruit or vegetable?
9. What is your favorite activity for leisure time?
10. Do you play an instrument? Which one?
11. Are you satisfied with the location of the world where do you live?

 

Thanks for taking part in this award nomination!

Ivana

Roots: The Safety Zone

There is snowing outside the window and I think about the roots. It freezes and we are looking for the safety zones, where to survive bad weather. People have shelters in their houses and trees in the roots.

Humans also have the roots, and on many levels. As an individual, as a member of the family, tribe, nation, continent and the entire Universe. Every part of our Self has its own safety zone, the roots. They are represented by our past – history, ancestors, relationships, successes and failures. We cannot erase them, but we can learn and change our perspective. Every new beginning includes our entire history. As if you replant the tree – you can find a better environment for it, but do not damage the roots during transport otherwise you damage the entire tree.

Does it mean that we have to store all even traumatic experiences in the roots? No, it doesn’t. Every experience can be used as a fuel for our inner fire. All sun and shadows are endless source of woods for our warmth and hospitality. We have to accept our history as a fact, and then we may not be traumatized by it. The worst thing is to preserve the pain because that part of roots is cold and lifeless. It is a risk factor for our future, frozen can be easily broken.

If the roots are working properly, they are open to receive nutrients and excrete waste products. Unlike trees, we don’t always recognize good nutrients from waste products. Sometimes it takes a long time to understand. Don’t give up! It helps if you understand where your roots on some of your levels are. Where are your safety zones? First, it should be your body and your home. These are places where you should feel free in all manifestations of the spirit. The basic safety zones for the life and growth.

Some people examine factors too deep in the past and don’t care enough about the present. They forget that life is not just the roots. The roots are shelter and source of life, but we cannot live a life locked inside. Like trees, we can hide the power in the roots for winter, but in the spring we have to go out and move forward.