Following my last advice, I turn attention to the faith. Although I’m not a part of any religion officially, my heart speaks Hebrew.
I have no preconditions to it from the family, it came to me in dreams many years ago and since that I’ve confirmed a strong response of my soul and heart to the sound of the Hebrew language in various circumstances, even though I didn’t understand a single word in the beginning.
I’m still on the way of searching how to implement this fact into my daily life and not to pretend anything. Maybe I’m not fast enough and this is why the violet color sits deep in the wardrobe full of dust.
So I returned to the picture I drew a few years ago, when I was trying to catch my vision of the commandments inside of the tree of life.
I have meditated over this drawing last days and it seems to me, that each of us is a kind of smart-phone with the spiritual crown instead of antenna, constantly sending messages about true personal stuff to the whole universe with stars as transmitters.
It doesn’t matter how colorful and funny things are displayed to other people, the truth is preciously mined and sent to the attention of HaShem.
Sometimes it’s hard to believe when you get no direct answer, but the point is to keep trying and stay connected, right?
With love and apology for my Hebrew handwriting,